Placing Myself In-Situ.
Laura mentioned to me in our last one-on-one that she wanted to see more of my own personal voice in the work I was producing. I felt this was a good point. I have often created work in the past that is very personal and expressive with some aspect of myself very eminent in the forefront of the work. Laura's point was interesting for me to reflect on. Looking back, a lot of my actions were very anonymous and lacked a sense of persona.
I decided to take Laura's suggestion to the extreme. I printed a huge 24"x36" colour photo of myself shirtless without an expression, messy hair, scruffy stubble and deface it. It was important to me that the defacing element was removable or interactive. I had to experiment with different vellums and types of markers/pens to find the exact combination that gave me the look that I was going for. Thankfully I finally got there and began to tell a story through my identity.
Theres many layers to this action. I wanted to place myself "in-situ" to the work that I've been doing throughout the semester. I started to randomly choose numbers that have some sort of significance to my life and my personal identity, both with positive and negative connotations. Weight, waist size, shoe size, old addresses, # of Instagram followers, # of Facebook friends, # of Contacts in my phone, days on this earth, etc. I placed blue dots over top of beauty marks, spots that have been on my skin since birth. I placed red dots over top of blemishes that I have accumulated over the years or in the recent days. Phrases and thoughts, beliefs, words, nicknames are embellished all over my face.
Besides this being a project about identity I wanted to confront my own insecurities about how the world sees me. Since I was young I have always been extremely observant at everybody I pass by, wondering what they're thinking of me, how I'm coming across, how my face reads to strangers. I've felt this sense of disconnect between my feelings and mood on the inside and the emotions I am expressing on the outside the later into my twenties and I felt this experiment would be an interesting start to tackling these questions I have about impression.